Trying to get motivated

I've had a lot of stress lately - and I am trying to pull myself back up and get motivated! UGGGGGGG

Trying to stay on track

I've been trying to stay on track but just really been maintaining the weight - which would be great if I was in P3... So I have a few more shots to go and still aiming for that 100 lb mark... Gonna write down my goals today so they are solidified and go back and re-read why I was doing this in the first place.

Best Lunch Ever

I finally didn't binge - I had tilapia, salad and an apple with a little oil per the recommendation of my trainer (we'll seeeeee eyebrow raised) THIS LUNCH TASTED AMAZING. If you haven't tried tilapia - I'd highly recommend you try it!

Too Funny - BATTLE

Funny - I ran into my WW Leader David (He's Awesome!). He found my blog doing research as lots of people have asked him about the protocol. Too funny - I was a little shocked but amazed at the same time. I told him it's not for the weak at heart - and he expressed his gratitude for my honestly on this blog. If you have the fortitude this may be right for you - I've done very well. But you have to ~ have to follow the program. Whether it is WW or this! WW taught me some great skills and I'd recommend it highly for exactly that! I didn't get here by just HCG alone. I lost about 50 lbs with WW and have a lot of tools now. If you've been following my blog at all there were a lot more skills that I needed and still do... But I absolutely had to deal with the emotional/mental road blocks. If you don't deal with those - honestly NO PROGRAM not matter what it is will work for you. If you don't follow this program - and are taking the shots - YOU WILL GAIN or STALL in weight loss - which I have done several times. I don't know if my weight will be a battle all my life or not! If I finally get to the root cause of my emotional/mental road blocks - then at that point I may be able to put the weight issue on the back burner. But until I am there I will BATTLE WITH ALL MY MIGHT!

Benefits of WW

• Portion Control - I needed this I didn't know when my body felt full
• Emotional Eating - stopping and thinking
• Planning - thinking before you go to an event - daily planning too
• Imagery - seeing yourself where you want to be - squelching those negative/sabotaging people
• Support - this is key especially if you a) don't have a support system at home, b) don't think you can do it c) you are always welcome
• The program is forgiving - you can pickup the same day if you screwed up and still drop weight that week.

Personal Drawbacks (not a negative on the program)

• It takes a long time
• I had trouble sustaining my weight loss

I may get to the end of this and still end up back at WW - I don't know - but the great thing is I know David will welcome me with open arms!

Benefits of HCG

• The weight loss is quick
• Resets your hypothalamus
• Fat loss is supposedly permanent (I don't know this I haven't reached my goal or sustained it for a long period of time)

Personal Drawbacks (not a negative on the program)

• Program is unforgiving - you screw up you'll gain/stall the next day
• Very limited choices of food - boredom sets in - binge eating
• Cannot go into this program with emotional/mental road blocks - emotional/binge eating

So, for me both programs have pluses and minuses - honestly I do know that my future holds for me a THIN ME! Right now - HCG is helping me with that - it may be that down the road I'll be back at WW to help me sustain it - I have know idea! I still have the change of life to go through - which could be a change in my weight again - I don't know. Only GOD know what lays ahead for me...

Screwing up and Goal Setting

But I talked to my trainer last night and told him I was going to stop so I could have B-Day cake in three weeks for my B-Day. He advised me not to stop to keep going even though I have had all these bumps in the road. So, I'm going to keep going. Even though I'm really frustrated with myself. So, I'm writing down my goals - not for New Years either. Because I have them in my head and haven't really fleshed them out (no pun intended)! I'm talking goals for my business, financial freedom and getting rid of the fat as well and what all that will look like. I mean literally look like - I'm a very visual person so I am also going to get together a vision board. I'm going to take a leap of faith and purchase an airline ticket to a conference I don't even know if I'll qualify for by the end of this month. But I have a little over 3 weeks to make my goal - and when I'm under pressure I can do it!

-4 lbs WOOOOOOOHHHHHHHOOOOOOO!!!

I'm down to 204.6 this morning - I got on the scale off the scale on the scale off the scale like 4 x even moved the scale around because I just didn't believe it!!! WOW! 6 more and it will be 100 LBS!!! ONE HUNDRED!!!

HMMM - What to write...

I went shopping yesterday and found frozen tilapia - cooked one up yesterday and OMG - I loved it. Why - because I am so sick of chicken! Not sick of steak yet - but found out from my trainer that red meat can tend to hold water in the body because of creatine (click to view interesting article). Which is not a bad thing however - not good just before getting weighed and measured. So, this was a learning experience for me not to eat red meat the day before or the day of getting weighed and measured. So, hmmmmmm - makes me wonder - today I dropped 2 lbs - was that the water weight?

So the Tilapia was really reasonable - farm raised and 4 to a bag at under $4. I'm gonna buy more of this! THANKS LARRY!!!! Oh and there are endless possiblities for seasoning - blackened, cajun, salt/pepper/lemon...

I'm down to 207.4 today - AND I'M GONNA KEEP GOING!