FEAR AND LIVING

Sometimes I think we allow fear to rule our lives and our hearts so much that we forget to live and become stagnant. Feared asking for help for fear of rejection or disappointment that the need could not be met. Feared loving for fear of losing the one I loved, feared successes, feared failures, feared admitting I was wrong that I'd appear weak, feared boasting that I'd be viewed as prideful. I allowed fear to rule so much of my life I lost the purpose of living to the fullest I could. When I began releasing some of those fears I was able to not only fully love another person but love myself. So much so, that if I were to lose them through them leaving - I know that it's not necessarily a direct reflection of me, because I loved them to the best of me and I love me. I think if we don't love and respect ourselves, we cannot fully love another person the way God intended. Something I've realized lately is that I've been allowing fear to get in the way of my success in getting rid of the rest of this weight. It's been over the past few weeks. It's kind of crazy, how fear can stifle our progress but disguising itself as other things, excuses, business, pettiness and so many other things. We'll pick fights with our children, avoid people, things, tasks and worst of all feed (literally) feed the fears in order to stuff them down and in order to not deal with the fears. It's really hard to choose to dig deeper and move past those things that we don't want to or choose not to deal with at the moment or ever! For me it's a moment by moment realization - living in the moment - living for the future - living for hope - living for love - living to love - living to give back - living to receive - living to praise and be praised - living for GOD - living for our families - living for OURSELVES! Move past the fears and move towards the living!