Tuesday, April 21, 2009

The Full Picture

It helps when you have the full picture in order to assess what's going on and why - forgiveness is a good thing - I really like this sent by a friend...

Originally published in The Plain Dealer on Sunday, May 28, 2006

To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me.

It is the most-requested column I've ever written. My odometer rolls over to 50 this week, so here's an update:

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

4. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

5. Pay off your credit cards every month.

6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.

8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.

9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.

12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.

13. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.

16. Life is too short for long pity parties. Get busy living, or get busy dying.

17. You can get through anything if you stay put in today.

18. A writer writes. If you want to be a writer, write.

19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.

22. Overprepare, then go with the flow.

23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.

24. The most important sex organ is the brain.

25. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: "In five years, will this matter?"

27. Always choose life.

28. Forgive everyone everything.

29. What other people think of you is none of your business.

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

33. Believe in miracles.

34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.

35. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

36. Growing old beats the alternative - dying young.

37. Your children get only one childhood. Make it memorable.

38. Read the Psalms. They cover every human emotion.

39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.

41. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

42. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.

43. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

44. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

45. The best is yet to come.

46. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

47. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

48. If you don't ask, you don't get.

49. Yield.

50. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

Lies and Truth...

What is truth? How do you convince someone that you had no malintent- that you're speaking the truth... I myself have never understood why people lie... My memory is so bad I couldn't keep a lie straight if I tried!!! I watched too much of this growing up with my mother's alcoholic friend - lies - malicious behavior - cruelty and manupulation at its best. I have no respect for those who lie/manipulate others. I've never had time for this in my life and have weeded those people out of my life.

I am human and I'm going to screw up and I'm going to make mistakes! AND I own up to those errors - walk straight into the fire and take ownership of my mistakes... I'm frustrated and don't know what to say... Inside I'm crying out and want to be understood and still have my fears that I always have to lay at the feet of Jesus... He's the only one that truly knows the intent of my heart... Sometimes I wish other's could see me transparently - that I could let go of all the barriers - maybe it's safer just to stay - but I don't want to stay the way I am being all closed up - I have a whole person to give - full of love, acceptance, genuine faithfulness and honesty - a treasure hidden away in my heart - ready to blossom forth...

I'm rambling - think I'll go walk at the water now!!! I did have some peanut butter - so yes off protocol - but I stopped myself there with the emotional eating!!!! Off I go!

3 days Smoke Free - Add PMS - Allegies and Lack of Sleep.... EWWWWWW

I never made it the first time I tried to quit - but and doing pretty good this time other than being really freakin' irritated!!! So, I am doing yard work today and yesterday I binged on not too bad of stuff just was not protocol so I did go up this morning to 206.4... I'm pumping the fluids today to try and flush the rest of this stupid nicotine out of my system and doing the yard work to keep busy so I don't eat either! Been grumpy - fighting allergies - PMSin' and not sleeping well I'm sure because of the coughing - am not sure if that's the allergies or the nicotine clearing itself from my lungs! I just know that I am really irritable with all the things compiled together! UGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!! So, back to the yard work - more gum - more water... I have to also brew some sun tea while the weather is good!!!

Monday, April 20, 2009

VLCD Day 6 Down -.2

Down to 204.6 - cleaning and having fun getting ready for summer!!!

Saturday, April 18, 2009

VLCD D4 -.8 LBS

YEPPERS - today was 204.8!!! Part of that is because I went to get a pedicure and my nails done and they used lotion and oil - but I'll TAKE IT!!! I'M REALLY CLOSE TO ONEDERLAND!!! YESSSSSSSSSSS!!! Going strong this time :D 8.8 lbs is 4 days!!!

Friday, April 17, 2009

VLCD D3 -1.4

Down another 1.4 lbs today - for a total of 8 lbs in 3 days :D LOVE THIS PROTOCOL!!! Almost back to LIW of 204.8 - bet I'll be seeing that number tomorrow!!! YIPPIE!!! Onederland is just around the corner and I'm getting there this time! YES!!!

Thursday, April 16, 2009

VLCD DAY 2

Same weight this morning - nothing to report!!!

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

1st VLCD -6.6 lbs

I am so lovin' that 6.6 lbs the first day!!! YEAH BUDDY!!! Let's do this again! I had to step on the scale several times to make sure it was right!!! But my pants are even fitting different this morning YEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Loading Complete

I loaded for 3 days instead of the 2 and gained 6 lbs. Ran out the door yesterday and forgot to take my shot so am taking one this morning. And let the races begin!!! I'm so ready this time and excited!!!

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Still Sick

So I'm having a hard time loading with being sick because I am sleeping so much so I'm going to load for 3 days rather than just 2...

Friday, April 10, 2009

LOADING TODAY!!!

I'm starting my loading today and wouldn't you know it!!! I'm coming down with a cold - what the heck!!! I don't care I am going forward with this and gonna do start the round strong and finish this baby off!!! Oh - not sure what my weight was this morning because my daughter made me breakfast and I ate before I weighed - so this morning was 208.4 lbs after I ate and had some coffee... So, we'll see what tomorrow morning brings after the first load day!!!

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Loading Begins Thursday

I can't wait!!! I am getting really excited about this round! I know this is it for me!!! I'm still maintaining the 207.6!!! AWESOME! I almost cannot believe it but it's true! I've done it!!! Now 1 more round - hopefully I'll get where I need to be in just 1 more round!!! THANKS AGAIN DD.CA, HCGSUPPLIES.COM AND CINDY!!! I couldn't have done this without your help and support!!!

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Gearing up...

I'm gearing up for the next round which I will start next weekend! I cannot wait! I really needed the break and to prove to myself that I can maintain the loss that I've already done. I am 2.8 lbs over my last injection weight. YES!!! I did it! No huge gains and as far as I'm concerned that is maintaining! I cannot even begin to tell you how happy I am with myself! That's a HUGE accomplishment!