Letter to Mom

I started my letter and have discovered something I didn't anticipate... I didn't cry once! Wasn't too angry... But it was just a letter of facts... Strangely I was quite unemotional about it but I do feel like a house was lifted off of me... Amazing... I feel pretty free. I feel so free it's amazing... At first I thought write a letter to my mom. She's dead for God's sake what good will that do... But it's truly amazing how I feel... Not sure if I'm done with the letter or not... But it's a start!