Just Here

Well - my journey this round has completely sucked! Just being honest... I haven't really tried or have I and just been a failure with this particular round. I'm beginning the journey to self-discovery of why I have been sabotaging myself. I have the book - I need to go and pick-up some key items for journalling - pens, paper, colored pencils etc... recommended in the book to continue on this journey. I am making a concerted effort this today to actually stick to the protocol. I apologize if I have disappointed anyone - if anything I've disappointed myself more than I could have disappointed anyone reading my blog. I know the issues are deep seeded in past emotional hurts. I am proud of myself in this respect - I've maintained! I haven't gone so out of control that I've actually gained any weight. So, in that I can be proud. Yes!?!?!?!?!?! Yes, I can be proud of myself in that regard!



I'm starting with basics again - I have my americano, apple, green tea and water sitting on my desk ready to be consumed. Anytime I am at all tempted today I shall pray. It's the only defense I have againts my own destructive behavior. So, I will leave you with those thoughts for today. And I am up 1.2 lbs.