POOR CHOICES

I'm re-evaluating some poor life choices I've made these past couple months and how it can really affect perception... My faith and integrity are my two top core values - and recently I have said and done things that impact the way I am perceived. It made me have to stop and think - as there were some things said in conversation today there is a perception held that really is not an absolute about me. Yes, I have made a couple of mistakes and poor choices over the past couple months. It made me take a look at myself and go - now wait a minute - THAT'S NOT TRUE. If you are saying that your top core values are your faith and integrity but you did this... And the person who's known you for a short time views you as this... Then how do other people view you???? Is that really how you want to present yourself to the world? Does it matter? Does it matter only what the person thinks??? In some aspects it does - however, I know who I am... I am a fallen creature saved by my ONE TRUE GOD sending His ONLY SON to die for my sins... I fall daily - I have to ask forgiveness daily... I don't personify something I am not - I am FAR-FAR-FAR from perfect - I try to live my life according to the Word of God - but I know I fail miserably most of the time and that is why Christ died so that I could live... I have to carry my cross daily and continually ask forgiveness. I never want to be perceived as a "Sunday" christian that lives in the world all week only to attend church one day and ask forgiveness for everything during the week. I know I've been screwing up - I've had so many things on my plate lately - laid off - how am I going to make all the bills - kids - gas in the car - food on the table - keeping a roof over our heads. None of these are an excuse - with all the stress - I've made those poor choices... I am far-far more disappointed in myself that there's now this perception than Now I cannot undo them but I can live my life as before - to show my true value system - who I TRULY AM! I am A WOMAN OF GOD - A WOMAN OF INTEGRITY - A WOMAN OF INFINITE WORTH - A WOMAN WORTHY OF A GODLY MAN - A LOVELY WOMAN - I'M THE REAL DEAL - HONEST AND LOYAL TO THE CORE.

Donnie McClurkin- We Fall Down

I may appear as though I have this hard exterior. However, once you really get to know me I have a very soft and tender heart - I'm the best friend anyone could have... I really only just want to be loved honestly with integrity by one man who has eyes only for me no one else!

I'm beginning to ramble - I cut this here...