Not been on track

Okay - so I haven't been focused and been struggling with emotions... Many many emotions - some of them I have pegged some I have not!!! UGGGHHHH! Anyway tomorrow is the 2 year anniversary of my mother's death and that is some of what has been going on internally! The rest is undefined at this point but I am digging my heals back in! I'm at 204.4 this morning! Let go!!! Onederland is just on the horizon!