Uncovered Pt 2

With this new discovery I've realized that although this is what my subconscious believes that when I lose all my weight that abandonment happens - I can now deal with it and overcome those underlying thoughts. I've also discovered through this process of blogging and through this weight loss challenge (thank you dd.ca, hcgsupplies.com, and Cindy) this journey is not just about losing weight. It's about self discovery and why we hold onto the weight. If we do not deal with the emotional side or the underlying/root cause of the issue then we will never truly be free of the weight. Something along the way will trigger and we will once again be obese. I've been dealing with lots emotional roadblocks along the way and each time I overcome one of them - I am then able to move further down the scale and maintain at that weight. I think this has been a HUGE one for me. I didn't think I had abandonment issue but apparently I do and now I can begin to deal with it and move forward and heal from it.

I've got 37 more shots in my freezer - so really enough to do a round (didn't know I'd missed that many) so today I'm starting over with my new discovery that I can battle and overcome @ 209.6 lbs. Next week I'll be in the 100's!

Accomplishments

• I am so proud of myself though that I have maintained below 210 for a long time now - my body should be ready to release the rest of this weight.
• I've quit smoking April 19th - had only 1 puff off a cig early on in quitting but haven't had anything since and not even craving them.
• I maintained my weight even through quitting the smoking.
• I've almost got my house in order - HUGE accomplishment.
• Discovering why/what triggers my eating
• Discovering why/what triggers my sabotage

I am so incredibly happy - I have a wonderful man in my life, my children are starting to cooperate, and I only have 39 lbs left to lose! I have an amazing support system and I can do this and finish out this round strong!!!!