Ready for Break & Past Relationship
I'm ready for some variety in my diet - I'm pleased that I've lost almost 20 lbs this round. Yeah it could have been more if I'd gotten my act together sooner - but better than last round where I didn't have it together at all and only maintained. However, I've only got about 40 lbs left to go - hoping to tackle that in the next round - but I have planned for 2 more rounds just in case I reach my goal and decided I still need to lose some more. Know what I mean? I haven't been this thin in years and love the protocol even though at times it is boring as all get out... I'm almost there peeps! And I cannot wait to get below 200 lbs. It's been 10 years since I've been below the 200's - and my kids are so proud of me - that's the best!
I'm also finding I appreciate life and myself more. I have this guy so shows up in my life every once and awhile. He shows up just long enough to turn my life upside down. He called this weekend and literally I just told him that he's not happy with his life and that is why he calls me. I told him to come to church - that he needs Jesus - not me. Don't get me wrong - I wasn't rude. But I did come to the realization that I'd rather be 90 with a billion cats than be with a man like that. I am worth so much more - and before it would have just tore me up - because I was so (for lack of a better word) desperate to have someone in my life. I know that there are a lot of good men - good Christian men out there. I see them in my church and the married ones love and would do anything for their wives. This fellow has no job, "his girlfriend told him they were threw this weekend", and three kids. Yeah - winner - NOT! Again, don't get me wrong - everyone goes through hard times but this fellow it's been the same story over and over throughout the years. I dated him when I was in my early 20's so you can see this has been a pattern for almost 20 years. COME ON! Get it together fellow you're almost 40 and still mooching off women. He never got that far into my life - only enough to suck my emotions dry a few times throughout the years because I wanted to believe he had changed because at one point I did love him.
As you can see this diet has not only changed my body - but has contributed to giving me the confidence to say NO! No more! I don't want YOU! I'm worth more than you have to offer!
I'm also finding I appreciate life and myself more. I have this guy so shows up in my life every once and awhile. He shows up just long enough to turn my life upside down. He called this weekend and literally I just told him that he's not happy with his life and that is why he calls me. I told him to come to church - that he needs Jesus - not me. Don't get me wrong - I wasn't rude. But I did come to the realization that I'd rather be 90 with a billion cats than be with a man like that. I am worth so much more - and before it would have just tore me up - because I was so (for lack of a better word) desperate to have someone in my life. I know that there are a lot of good men - good Christian men out there. I see them in my church and the married ones love and would do anything for their wives. This fellow has no job, "his girlfriend told him they were threw this weekend", and three kids. Yeah - winner - NOT! Again, don't get me wrong - everyone goes through hard times but this fellow it's been the same story over and over throughout the years. I dated him when I was in my early 20's so you can see this has been a pattern for almost 20 years. COME ON! Get it together fellow you're almost 40 and still mooching off women. He never got that far into my life - only enough to suck my emotions dry a few times throughout the years because I wanted to believe he had changed because at one point I did love him.
As you can see this diet has not only changed my body - but has contributed to giving me the confidence to say NO! No more! I don't want YOU! I'm worth more than you have to offer!
posted by Anonymous at
9:00 AM
1 Comments:
You aren't alone Toni. If I had addressed these type of issues when they first occurred, I'm sure I would be able to breeze through the protocol. You will find someone amazing. I'm believing the same. I have met plenty of men and was only with them with expectations for them to get better. Mainly because I had my own faults and wanted someone to accept them. The only problem was they never changed. Now I'm focusing on "what I see if what I get."
I also figured last week that why I clean out the toxins in my body, the toxic people needed to go too.
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