NEED FOR A CHANGE!

Something has to give! Okay is this what mid-life feels like?!?!?!? Is it the HCG?!?!?!?! I don't even know - I am feeling a need for change in my life! Something has to give and not just my weight going down! I am on the crucks of something and am not sure what, where, when or why! I just know that I'm needing something - something isn't being fulfilled in my life! Is it something that I can provide? Is it something that I need to look inside and change or is it external? Are there things around me that are thwarting my moving forward? I am not sure! I know that it makes my life a lot easier as I continue to clean the junk out of my house! I am at more peace with myself since I've gotten rid of a lot of the junk! But is that once again unveiling or making room for me to see things in my internal that I have not dealt with and are surfacing?!?!?!?!? I did a little self sabotage last night with some cookies and fried chicken! UGGGHHHH.... So, I know that kept my weight exactly the same and I may pay for it tomorrow with the weigh in?!?!?!?!? I may have already paid the piper - but that's unknown since the scale issue was resolved yesterday mid-afternoon! I finally had a job interview after 10 months! It went amazing!!! I'm one of 3 candidates! So, I am very hopeful and praying! Anyway - there's my rant of the day and my contemplation off the top of my head!

Today it a new day - I've had an americano with s/f syrup and an apple! I'm currently drinking a cascade ice - no carbs, fat or sugar! But bubbly and good! Probably not protocol friendly but we'll see how my weight is tomorrow! I am hard core going for it from here out! I want the rest of this weight GONE!!! Permanently and forever! I'm going to start back to the gym tomorrow doing some light cardio and strength training! If I notice that it is impacting my loss and this does not necessarily correspond with weight! I am talking inches here too! Which I am going to go and measure right now and get those posted!