THINKING - ACCEPTANCE - RANDOM THOUGHTS ~ It's the Cold :D
I've been so very hard on myself - so what if the weight isn't coming off as quickly as my "I want it now" self can be. I've lost 11 lbs this round including the weight added during the load days- almost forgot to do my measurements today - the Holiday weekend threw me off.
43.75" - YEAH - BABY!!!
I went back and looked at my photos from 5 years ago - and WOW! I need to really pat myself on the back and quit torturing myself. Isn't it crazy what we put ourselves through - so what - I will probably never be a size 2 - who cares! Only if I were trying to be a super model - but I'm too short anyway! HAHAHAHA!!! So, where will I end up? Oh, maybe a size 8... I'm a 14/16 now depending on the cut of clothes... But what is this really about? Size, weight, fat or WHAT? Can anyone really define what it means? For me it will mean freedom from fat - a lifelong plague of self imprisonment! Freedom from the daily self torture and self loathing! Freedom from the years of lost time of not living life because I was too scared of being laughed at - ridiculed and mocked! I'm finding that the closer I get to 40 I just really don't care what other people think! I know I keep saying that but it's really true - it's what I think about me that matters!
Today, my daughter looked at the amount of pounds I'd lost and she lite up like a light bulb and told me how proud of ME she was! Those are the moments that matter - those are the precious gems I want to hold in my pouch of remembrances. Not the fights or angry words - but that she was proud of me - it meant more to me than anything I could even explain! It was like the genuine words I'd always wanted to hear from my mother or father but those words came from my own child. And that's the person I care what they think! So, I guess that as I near 40 the people who really matter in my life are those that I take to heart what they have to say.
A few weeks ago there was a comment posted to my blog - I deleted it and didn't even allow it to be posted - it may not have been intended to be mean spirited, however, someone with less resolve than myself could have crumbled and just given up. I only share that so that other's reading would post only those words of encouragement to my fellow HCGer's to build up those on this site that are publicly doing this challenge, we are putting our hearts and our lives out there to encourage others to show that HCG is a great program and it works! But, we are people who have feelings and most have struggled with weight issues their entire lives if not a better part of it. So please be kind with your comments - it may tear someone up terribly and they'll quit altogether. Off my soapbox!
Me - I'm a keepin' a pluggin' on! Onward and downward!
Many blessings to you all!
43.75" - YEAH - BABY!!!
I went back and looked at my photos from 5 years ago - and WOW! I need to really pat myself on the back and quit torturing myself. Isn't it crazy what we put ourselves through - so what - I will probably never be a size 2 - who cares! Only if I were trying to be a super model - but I'm too short anyway! HAHAHAHA!!! So, where will I end up? Oh, maybe a size 8... I'm a 14/16 now depending on the cut of clothes... But what is this really about? Size, weight, fat or WHAT? Can anyone really define what it means? For me it will mean freedom from fat - a lifelong plague of self imprisonment! Freedom from the daily self torture and self loathing! Freedom from the years of lost time of not living life because I was too scared of being laughed at - ridiculed and mocked! I'm finding that the closer I get to 40 I just really don't care what other people think! I know I keep saying that but it's really true - it's what I think about me that matters!
Today, my daughter looked at the amount of pounds I'd lost and she lite up like a light bulb and told me how proud of ME she was! Those are the moments that matter - those are the precious gems I want to hold in my pouch of remembrances. Not the fights or angry words - but that she was proud of me - it meant more to me than anything I could even explain! It was like the genuine words I'd always wanted to hear from my mother or father but those words came from my own child. And that's the person I care what they think! So, I guess that as I near 40 the people who really matter in my life are those that I take to heart what they have to say.
A few weeks ago there was a comment posted to my blog - I deleted it and didn't even allow it to be posted - it may not have been intended to be mean spirited, however, someone with less resolve than myself could have crumbled and just given up. I only share that so that other's reading would post only those words of encouragement to my fellow HCGer's to build up those on this site that are publicly doing this challenge, we are putting our hearts and our lives out there to encourage others to show that HCG is a great program and it works! But, we are people who have feelings and most have struggled with weight issues their entire lives if not a better part of it. So please be kind with your comments - it may tear someone up terribly and they'll quit altogether. Off my soapbox!
Me - I'm a keepin' a pluggin' on! Onward and downward!
Many blessings to you all!
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